Tag: authenticity
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“Not Menacingly”
Forty-six years of twisting myself into shapes that never felt right. Then grief arrived, and with it, the only question that still makes sense: closer to love, or farther from it?
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“Dream Out Loud”
This summer has taught me that life is too short. Life has always been a struggle for me… forcing myself into day-to-day life in accordance with neurotypical standards is like jamming a square peg into a tiny round hole, and it has caught up to me.
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A New Universe To Weave
0850 — at some point I stopped being purely me and became someone I thought more acceptable to society. I picked up an attitude here, an affect there, a shield, a weapon… a patchwork of energy fields obscuring, creating, destroying… The most “me” threaded within & without the whole fucking thing. My midlife trick is…
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The Teacher With A Thousand Faces
The dramatis personae of any school is enriched and enlivened by a healthy variety of demeanors. If my intention was only to diminish those “unlike” me, I would be simultaneously devaluing their contributions along with my own. What makes us unique is often what makes us great. I have become the teacher I am today,…
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The Bête Bricoleur
I can write about Cerberus—The Performer, The Gatekeeper, and The Ice Monarch—because at various points in my career, I have tried to be them. We are often drawn to the masks we admire, or the ones we fear we lack.
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The Crack in Everything: How Trauma Made Me a Teacher
Tonight is my 30th High School Reunion. I thought about going. I’m not. While I feel less animosity than I did for the 10th or the 20th, the invite—and the social media blitz from the class Instagram account—opened a trauma wound that hadn’t fully healed. It was a May weekend in 1994. The Rangers had…
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Unmasking The Exile: Internal Family Systems & The Self
40+ years of surrendering in advance. 40+ years of self-deprecation as self-defense. 40+ years of believing what they tell me so that they’ll like me. 40+ years of wearing a mask that never let me fully breathe.
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We are here to make a better world
We’re often told that self-love is selfish, a frivolous indulgence. But what if society has it wrong? This post dives into the secret that looking inward isn’t about ego, but about unleashing an omnidirectional love that overflows, transforming not just ourselves, but the world around us. Discover the hidden truth about our human nature and…
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The A(DHD)symptotic Mind
“Sometimes the simplest tasks in my life can be asymptotic. ZeStroh’s Paradox is the variation of Xeno’s Paradox where the task, the simple task of putting the plate into the dishwasher breaks down like a fractal into molecular steps, atomic intricacies, nuclear nodules, protean particulars, electronic elements, and quarky points. Frozen it’s easier to put…
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The Liminal Role of AI in Writing and Art
Like most things in life, I tend to surf the liminal line and embrace the paradoxes while also drowning in them.