2/27/26
Confidence ~ Where does it come from? Are we born with it?
Until literally this evening, I never realized
what confidence felt like.

2/28/26
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9:56 AM — So much flying through
me head…
like the birds I just done fed…
When everything complicates it’s time to inhale/exhale and re-align to the moment.
My mind drifts from the now, it’s like a resonant polyrhythm and sometimes the  PPAARRAALLLLAAXX of reality from the varied frequencies of my past requires realignment.
Entropy has an inherent rhythm and if you don’t match it you get odd patterns in the Matrix's fractal.
I’m just going to treat this as a high-yield data-dump because I honestly don’t even know WTF I’m talking about the words vibrate through my pen…

Words, words, words, more like shapes, sketches, I feel a need to get what is building in here [points to head] and here [points to heart] to here [gestures 🫴].
Creativity is getting the locked up anomalies of beautiful you free so that energy can do what energy do.
It really is thermodynamic. In fact, as far as theoretical paradigms go, thermodynamics doesn’t get the love it deserves. I mean, it underpins EVERYTHING!!! Systems evolve thermodynamically.
ENTROPY
I’m in a period of entropic reconfiguration... this makes sense now...
We arrange disparate atoms 
Compounds, molecules, chemicals, materials into something we call "order." We bind it to a framework. Some are "built to last" as they say... some are more temporary...
ALL ARE EPHEMERA
Eidolons, Walt said... We watch these ordered systems begin to follow their energetic trajectories and we call it Decay. Or we call it PROGRESS. Or we simply call it CHANGE.
As the pieces spread and form patterns, energetic patterns, some of us see shapes.
These shapes are dictated by the shapes in our memories, shapes in our personalities, shapes in our will.
The entropic release driftwood

wafts and diffuses and obvious shapes emerge as the thermodynamic laws and quantum energies follow the rules of relativity in a general fashion... [clears throat]
But this reshuffling, every now and then, this reshuffling of the thermodynamic Universe reveals new patterns... that's where I come in.
It is the job of the DIVERGENT to explore these novel reconfigurations, explore entropic patterns...
We are the test-pilots of SOCIETY.
"We are the music makers... we are the dreamers of dreams..."

How many of us have been shut up and effectively shut down by a world not ready to see and too chickenshit to put themselves out there and make mistakes...

And there it is when you let the hand go long enough it will get ahead of consciousness and tell you what you're REALLY thinking.
We find the  PPAARRAALLLLAAXX and we fill the spaces as best WE DO.

10:24 AM — So I write of  PPAARRAALLLLAACCTTIICC shift. Entropy. Art. Meaning. Surrender. Control.
~FLOW~
Feel flows... (great song) We intelligently listen for the resonant intelligence underpinning. These moments of entropic dispersal provide opportunities for recognition.
It’s like smashing atoms together to observe the behavior of the particles in the aftermath.
We are Riders of Entropy. 
The Wild West of a young Universe.
Big bang, young man.
Nirvana is essentially to "blow out" 
and there is that poetry 
of blowing out a dandelion
Seed pod and taking a snapshot of the flecks in stasis in the photographic Heisenberg state of UNCERTAINTY.
Are they spreading? Are they coalescing? What is the direction? Is he laughing or crying?
This vertiginous Kuleshov effect of non-verbal meaning-making.
Entropy | Meaning 

As fast as we glue it together, it drifts apart.
I find the frequency.
I find the vibe.
I connect the similar.
I collect spaces created by PPAARRAALLLLAAXX.
And I make shapes.
We live in those shapes.